Bonjour tout le monde. Je m’appelle Eh Hi. J’habite à Yangon. Je travaille à Beaure. J’aime écouter de la musique. J’étudie le français. Maintenant, j’écris un message sur mon ordinateur. À bientôt ! Bonne nuit.
I am so moody and so emotional
Thinkings
TODAY i am so moody and my mind is lost. I am thinking about why they are like this? These days i heard bad news around me so, i am not happy. Is it my fault too much expecting from them. You know that ………. see now i am forgetting what i am writing about? It is signal of aging or speechless of shocking. You know that these days i try to learning new things to forget sadness inside me. I feel useless because i couldn’t help and protect them from nightmare. At work some of my team members was attacked by cyber bully and they assumed that the culprit is someone in our office or our ex-workers. I really want to help them but i couldn’t. God please give me power to protect my friends. Yesterday is the worst day for me, in facebook some new feed pop up and i saw a person post about his status which is not good. I have some suspicious about his personality but when i asked him about it his reply was no. But according to his yesterday’s post i clearly saw his real self. I don’t want to accept it but must accept it. I am thinking about why is he like that? What things change him? Actually there is no answer for me. Honestly i admit that i am really shock about it. His family is away from him and only he left in this country. So, he can do whatever he like. I know that he has financial issue/difficulties. Money changed him to devil from a young innocent person? I have so many questions in my mind Why? Why? Why?
I would like to ask him why he changed a lot these years? When i first met him at drawing class ,he is an university student and he is smart and kind. After that we haven’t seen each other long time. At 2020, i tried to contact him with to meet up then, we met at the plaza and we speak about our past and struggling. Then, Second time we met at the shopping centre. After that Covid and coup happened we haven’t meet each other. But we have contact via messenger. I am the one who talkative in the message he barley replied my message. He post often his status in facebook and all post is about drinking at bars. One strange thing is he never post who he is with. I am praying that his friend is to be a girl not a boy. You know that i am conventional or traditional whatever you think, i don’t like boy like boy. It is really interrogate to me. But my prayer is not come true. Based on his yesterday fb post he showed his really personality and seem that he is happy with them.
Accidentally at my work some boys are interested on boys, they couldn’t hide their feelings at office. If they love each other too much, do love at outside, don’t bring it on office. Office is the place to work, not the place to date. Am i too selfish to think like that? I believe that you will agree my point.
By the way i am attending online photoshop class and i really upset about one thing is the lecture absent so many times that make me less interested on it.
Au revior, A bientot!
Lacks of my tear
Hello!
I am so tired these day and I want to fly far away from current condition. I want to cry so badly but tears cannot drop from my eyes. May be I have lack of energy to cry out.
I am so sick of people around me. I wanna be billionaire so freaky bad.
I am not happy. Tell me what should I do to make me happy.
Hello!
This is the first time i publish my post at word press. I have no idea what i should say so first of all i would like to say myself “Thanks you so much for stay healthy these day”. Wish you very happy and long life along with your family”.
bar lo lo nae thone nyate shi pyi pae
still WIP. Still the road to go forward.
not feeling well
Everything is not going well so i become not feel well. Sometimes i don’t understand people who do not understand. It is fair, fair situation. Sometimes i am high and sometimes i am so depressed. Is money the most important thing in human being? Sometimes i think that money can solve most of the problems in our life. At least you don’t need to worry for day to day used. I am so freaky bad to become a billionaire. I want to travel around the world.
Today journal writing
The exhibition day is near and near but i just finished drawings only three and one is really not good. My theme is flowers so i found out flowers pic on website and a few photos taken by me. I got really stressful for this. I spent too much for that exhibition such as money, time and my soul. I am a person same like others who want the best outcome of my trying hard. I just realized that others are more putting their soul and strength than me. This is my first time participating in art exhibition so i want to be more than the word just fine. Sometimes i confused that whether drawing is one of the thing i want to be in my life or not, asked myself softly. Because i heard that people they are not feeling tired upon doing their job especially when job and dreams are the same. This thought come through my mind drawing is not my dream when i felt stressed and tired from drawings.
P.S. My English is not so fluent so i can’t mentioned what i want to say so please understand me.
Still on process
i already mentioned that i will join next exhibition but not finished drawing yet. So stressed. One drawing is on process and others are how to mention on the way to sketch. I’ve plan to out next year exhibition. I couldn’t tolerate the stress level i got from this. This time i started already so i have to do until the end. Next time may be i don’t want to participate art exhibition.
costs and benefits
I spent a lot of my earning on buying paintings things and it costs too much. I am worried that i can get back as much as i invested. Yesterday i bought 3 canvas and 10 plastic bags to put in paintings and ordered 3 frames. It is not the end, only started. I have to save money to buy drawing canvas, drawing books, so and so etc. To become an painting artists is not easy it is just my thinking. But i heard that our teachers were struggling to reach their goal. One thing i know that the factor to give strength to keep going is passion and belief and confidence.
Now i am out for lunch. I’ll be back soon.
Ohiyogosaimasu
Ohiyo minasan!
Today i started using this blog and hope that in future i will share more information about paintings.
Sayonara 🙂
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